It’s the last day of Venus retrograde in Aquarius, so I am putting this out there and leaving the past behind for good.
Looking back at my last relationship and how when it ended I thought everything was falling apart. You all saw me I was cynical as fuck. It was honestly one of my darkest hours in this life only comparable to my mother passing away.
And I should have known that there was magic in the experience although my psyche labeled it as a “bad” thing, just like how when my mother died, that experience actually kick started my spiritual journey…It gave me the means to question who I was and what I was here for… the same thing happened when my relationship ended, I was scared, traumatized & immersed in darkness only to question, who I am & where I was going, but this time I had prior spiritual knowhow so I utilized my abilities and I prayed and I prayed, I cried a lot, but I prayed harder. I made myself smile through the tears and I encouraged myself to push through. and you know what… I did. I broke through the darkness of night once again and came out so much stronger. Since then, I have managed to manifest more magick in the past 3 months than I have in say the past year maybe even longer because I was being held back by a relationship (not a person) that wasn’t going anywhere and it held back my ambitions. I broke through and the universe had honored & rewarded my persistence. Everything I wanted in the past 3 months has come into physical form, everything. From finding the right group of friends, manifesting an abundance of funds, a summer filled with travels, to experiencing transformative festivals, and most important to my heart, finding someone who has had such an immense impact on my life so quickly, someone who is literally my reflection. We texted briefly for a few weeks before we physically met and when we did he found me under the moonlit sky, just like I dreamed of, at Gem and Jam nonetheless and then having the most profound romantic spiritual connection that I have ever had in my entire life that it literally stopped time when I realized what I was dealing with. This also being my first multidimensional experience, I remember I looked up into his eyes and I swear it was like I was looking into the eyes of the Cosmos itself… and I knew that that there was magick in our meeting. And to think that none of this would have been possible if I wouldn’t have experienced and confronted darkness… Although my ex wants nothing to do with me and although he is kind of mean, I still hold the utmost respect for him because if not for him I wouldn’t have become the person I am, I might not have taken the path that I did, and I might not have met the person I did, but I did. I learned and that’s what counts. I don’t really know if he is happy, but I sure as hell hope he is as happy as I am because damn it feels great! I am so excited and I am so grateful for this entire experience and all of the people who helped me through it. I have not forgotten the messages and I have not disregarded your extensions of love & I just want to say that when I do get to where I am going I will be paying all of you back somehow, some way because you all did so much for me. And to the girl who “took my place” in the heart of my ex, I said some things out of hurt and anger and I apologize for my irrationality. I was out of place to say that I didn’t like you or that you are a homewrecker… the home was long since broken and it wasn’t you, it wasn’t him, it wasn’t me, there is no blame it just happened. It was meant to happen for the sake of lessons and for the sake of love being able to exist, expand and contract freely.. and I have no hard feelings, there haven’t been any for a while, but I just had to express my feelings for whomever cares to listen… If I hadn’t gone through that dark night, I would have never seen the sun rise… Oh, how I had missed the sun, and here I am now basking in the light of all that is holy and I have to say its soo great! I hope everyone makes it to this point in their own way and lives the lives of their dreams, because you all so deserve it and I promise that if your intention is pure and your heart is filled, you will make it… and you will go so far ,so effortlessly…So thank you for listening and sorry this is so long… This is my expression, & you have the choice to love it or leave it, no hard feelings if you don’t love it, but I still love you… I promise. Much love, bliss and gratitude to all that is and all that will be . It is an honor to be of existence & in your presence. Now ,here’s to the future and to the love I have yet to experience! Wooo!! -Ajna Gyptian